Redhya

you asked me - why are you not the same? and why have you changed? i avoided to tell what i'd done and what i'd become, for when i thought why i was changed, it’d make me scream at you thousand times in my head and after screaming, i'd collapse like a feeble child and ask you - why? you never knew why I'd always laugh. i was so afraid of traumas that a laugh would keep me sane and away from pain. but you, selfish-bitch, scraped my wound ’til it started bleeding. i bled. well when i kissed you, it reminded you of him. and you cringed at my lust! i know - i wasn't the one you had dreamt of, but trust me, I was tryin’ to be i opened up to you to show you my inside. we travelled deep under the ocean and tried hard to be lost, but you always had an eye on the trails. you and your ulterior motives - how much you knew one another - i don’t know. i think - i never completed you i was merely an escape for you, a secret passage to a place named imagination i was a kit...

Vaccine Appointment or Flash Mobile Sale My experience of getting the first dose of Corona vaccine [covishield] in Dehradun was buttery smooth and hassle-free. Therefore, I ought to applaud the commendable service of nurses, staff, and of course our state government. :) On April 28th, 2021, I came across a notification that read – “Indian government opens covid-19 vaccine registration for above 18 years.” I promptly registered myself on the Aarogya Setu app the very day. The notification further stated that the vaccination drive would start on May 1st, 2021. The registration process was easy. However, to be honest, booking a slot on Co-WIN is like buying a mobile phone in a flash sale on Flipkart. Every day the sale starts at 4 pm. If you are a few minutes late, you won’t get a slot since a lot of people, just like you, want to be vaccinated. Besides, the low number of vaccines is the root problem. Don’t use the Aarogya Setu app to book a slot, but instead use the CO-WIN website. Ke...

Chapter One Having talked to some of the group members that were mostly infamous boys and girls at school, Tara curiously looked at a new face standing at a distance and trying to be low-key. “Who’s he?” whilst staring, she asked Mayank. “He’s my friend from 10th B.” All of a sudden, the new face turned towards her. She was slightly taken aback by a tiny smile across his face. Flaunting his cute dimples, he looked nonchalant. Mayank gestured to him to join them. “You have a name?” She asked the boy; her curiosity was an icebreaker. “Lakshya” Pondering for a while, she said, “You don’t seem like a Lakshya.” “What do you mean?” “You shouldn’t be a Lakshya. You should be a Sahil.” “What?” Lakshya couldn’t understand the sudden imposition of a random name to him. He further said, “It’s just a name. You needn’t be rigid about it.” Hardly giving any attention to his words, she added, “Besides that, you look like my dead grandmother.” “What the hell! I’m a boy.” “You’re a Sahil and my dead gr...

The onset of the second corona wave in India brought a series of incessant tragedies. Devastated cities mourned burning pyres with ghastly flames approaching the sky, and the world heard our cry. *peace comes after war* At the beginning of 2021, lives around us started to blossom again; some attempted to live the life they used to live before March 22, 2020 ( Janta Curfew ). Mass gatherings [because of festivals, protests, religious ceremonies, rallies, etc] normalized anti-covid behaviour. Consequently, people conjectured that perhaps the virus wouldn’t hurt them or their family. It’s a psychological issue we can’t picture our loved ones in a grieving state. But this inability of ours doesn’t make them immune to the virus. And soon janta began to disregard the covid guidelines as per their conscience and comfort. Many asymptomatic people were roaming about, unknowingly increasing the spread. Further, not isolating, people, who refused to accept that they were infected even when they ...

No matter how many times I think that I’ve forgotten that moment, to prove me wrong, it keeps on coming back like lingering back pain. The pictures in my head are fresh as though it happened yesterday. And like a frightened, helpless child, I stoop down behind a wall and wait for it to leave. Tick tick one! Tick tick two! Tick tick three! But when I slyly peek over the wall to see whether it’s gone or still there, being a brand ambassador of a melancholic life, I find that squirming moment right there looking at me dead in the eye. It fucking dwells inside my head like a parasite eating me slowly. There is a door with a peephole between me and that moment. I wish I could cover this peephole forever. At this moment, I’m standing at the door, shivering. Nervousness has vanquished my fragile calmness; I can feel my heart pounding out of my chest. I know that I’m doing wrong, but agitation along with madness is provoking me. I hear whispers – “Do it. Just one time.” And I peek through the ...

“Time is an illusion.” Carlo Rovelli, Theoretical Physicist What is Time? When you search this question on the internet, a web page soon appears and tells you the current time in your location like the picture below. Whereas, if you ask a theoretical physicist the same question, she may scratch her head for a while and think how she can explain time to this ignorant person. Later, she probably brings a couple of physics books and throws them at you. Well, in reality, she won’t do that, for a theoretical physicist, who has understood life thoroughly, knows how insignificant we are in comparison to this vast cosmos filled with countless phenomena to awe us. Besides, you won’t find a more humble person than her ever in your life. Now, let’s dissect time and see how it governs our mysterious universe. Time is JUST a Tool Your dear friend waiting for you under the scorching sun asks on a phone call, “Where the hell are you now?” Still at home, hastily wearing those skinny jeans and hardly m...

A pattern, in respect of human behaviour, is a repetitive Action on a repetitive Perception during a repetitive State of Mind . Here, Perception and State of Mind are two important parameters. Variations in any of these two parameters may or may not yield the same result, i.e., Action . For instance, in the decimal system, you always get 4 when you multiply 2 by 2. Here, let’s say that 4 is the value of Action , and the values of Perception and State of Mind are 2. The same values of Perception and State of Mind may produce the same resulting Action . I wish human behaviour had only two basic parameters instead of two highly complex parameters ( Perception and State of Mind ). It’d become simple to understand humans and their behaviours. Thus, we would predict the response of a person in a particular situation if we knew the values of Action , Perception , and State of Mind . However, it’d make us simpleton having only a handful of responses in this cluttered space and time. W...